I hated myself..

i deleted that post.

few days after i published that post.

i feel bad, really really bad,

i knew she read it.

i know she also wonder who is the person i mentioned,

but i didn't expect when she found out the one that i was talking about is her,

how would she react?

i really don't want this to happen.

but i was the one who made this.

i started to regret.

I did promise my parents ,

to be more mature

and leave that kind of childish and

bad-tempered attitude behind.

Did i ?

No, i didn't.

I'm still me.

That idiotic stupid me.

I still need revenge to make myself feel more better.

I'm still that sensitive.

Way too sensitive.

Sensitive about how people think about me,

sensitive about every sentences they said.

sensitive about..

EVERYTHING!

Fews weeks after i came here,

i voice out my problems to Farah.

She said that I was just too sensitive, and asked me to be just myself.

Yeah, the fake mask that i wore for years,

when can i take it off?

Girl, listen.

I really really sorry about what I've done.

It was really immature. I know that you are still....

you.

But ,

I am the one that haven't get used to it,

and i shouldn't blame you.

Really is my bad.

You are a nice girl, you really are,

but the problem is me..

I still feel bad although i confessed what I've done to you.

I don't know what should i do now.

Someone just teach me,

farah, teach me,

what should i do now?