Phew,mum,proved.

So yeah. Birthday is coming in two days. Excited? Bwargh-ly not.

Now…Why again? Ah, cause i.have.physics.paper.4.test.on.the.following.day.
Ah.. Now I get it.





FUCKER.
Stupid trials, somemore it’s going to be my one and only 18th birthday you know. Saddening.

So people keep telling me eh Felix, I wonder if your birth is a big fat April Fool joke arh.
Like like,the doctor might switch you and another baby with your mum so your mum get her child and her mum got you.
So then I thinking back then, I was told, by my mum, that there’s a lady that shared the same wad with her while both of them are at the pre-giving-birth-period-I-wonder-what’s-the-proper-term. And it appears that the lady’s son share the same birthday with me.Now come and think about it. OMFG. Bad times.
IT MIGHT BE TRUE !!!

No wonder my friends told me I don’t look like my siblings!!!
No wonder my friends told me I am better looking than them!!!














Fine they didn’t say that.
So I decided to call my mum.
“Ma a, I asked you larh, is there any possibilities that the doctor might switch me and Kai Xuan as a April Fool prank?”
Just so you know, Kai Xuan is the guy that share the same birthday with me.

So Mum hung up the phone, directly.

Minutes later I received a SMS.
It’s Mum.
“Don’t waste your handphone credit on this kinda retarded question.”

And minutes later another SMS still from mum.
“and come and think about it,I doubted they did, no wonder you looked so ugly.”


Proved. That’s my mum.

Fucking, fucking rant

So it happens that KTM train broke down,due to engine failure at Petaling station. Nice freakin' 9.45pm.
So it happens that the train drivers that goes different ways were arguing with each other that someone need to let out the lane for them to pass through, freakin' typical Malaysian.
So it happens that the whole argument thing goes on like 15++ minutes where I just stand outside the train with like few hundreds of Malaysian, 3 trans, 1 Caucasian and 1 miserable Taylorian as well waiting for someone to tell us what to do, where to wait, where to go.
So it happens that I am terribly dirty-smelly-sticky and I need to at least wash up my face in a minute.
So it happens that the train can only transfer us to the next station at Pantai Dalam.
So it happens that when everyone rushed out from the train and I can't find my wallet.

















and So it happens that it's in my bag. =). Gotcha.
So it happens that I missed the first bus, which tool every freakin 100+ people waiting outhere squashing their fat ass trying to get into the first bus, and only 3 miserable people didn't make it.
A lame-pissed-off-fucktard, A Taylorian and A Muay-Thai boxer.
So it happens that we talked.
So it happens that we hooked up.







NOT.
So it happens that the bus service assistant told us that the next bus is coming in 10 minutes.
So it happens that we convert the time he gave us into Malaysian time.

10x3. 30 minutes.
So it happens that we waited for the next bus for 30 minutes.
So it happens that I spent the whole time in the bus playing with a damn-adorable-kid.Making stupid faces.
So it happens that when I reached KL Central by bus, then I know that I can't even take the KTM anymore back to Kepong, cause the whole KTM ends their service at that time, fixing the problem.
So it happens that I cussed in front of the lady at the service booth.
So it happens that I called my aunt, thought that she might can come and fetch me.
So it happens that she refused to do so only because it's kinda far.

Kinda.

So it happens that I have to waste up my time listening to her comparing how far it is from Kepong to Central, and keep on asking me if there's other way home. Obviously there is. There's this LRT thing. Then she nagged about where to pick me up, SOGO station or Kelana Jaya.
So it happens that I seriously wasted 20 minutes just to listen to her fucking piece of crap. and she ends up telling me,

"I don't want to go so far"

So it happens that it pissed me off and I really wanna yell at her so I just told her that just give me a place, I wanna go home, period. So she asked me to go SOGO.
So it happens that she called in the minute while it's my turn to buy the ticket, asked me to change to Kelana Jaya.
So it happens that I cussed twice in the same station, within minutes.
So it happens that I called mum, complained the whole piece of crap to her and she only can ask me to bear for few more months.
So it happens that I complained everything her nice sister can do to us,

AS
A
FAMILY.

So it happens that my live, is not even worth a few liters of petrol.
So it happens that my FAMILY, compared my live with the few liters of petrol.
So it happens that I am not that worthy for her after all, I am just wasting her space of room, wasting her time taking-care-of-us-while-in-the-real-sense-we're-wiping-her-ass-spoon feed-her.
So it happens that this freaky-old-single-woman is my aunt.
So it happens that she keep on complaining about how susah payah she climbed the valleys, swimmed through the sea and walk over the desert WHILE IN REALITY just walk downstairs, push the car button, and lay her freaking ass on the Vios cushion and come and fetch me at the nearest place she need to go to.
So it happens that I didn't talk to her at all in the car.
So it happens that I called mum after I reach home, ranting over here.
So it happens that still, my freaking live has been compared to the freaking-liters-of-petrol.


Freaking liters of petrol.
Just fucking-can't-believe-it.

Grr, bite you.

Currently at The Web.peeking at the same table.

The cheebeh counsellor just won't walk away. I was there meeting up my friend where she's asking about the Pre-U course,where I was thinking *kaching* here comes my RM250. Manatau..

MANATAU the cheebeh counsellor makes me wait for him to finish the whole counselling session for an hour plus. How the fuck can he talk for an hour plus keep on digressing the main topic withouth letting people go. Lecturer from TCPJ konon. From Pre-U talk to Pre-U talk to petrol price, economics, prices of diesel compared to rubber and why the hell larhh he won't let them go.

Then I was kicked out from the cafeteria area by some kiss-my-ass-lick-my-feet-motherfuckers. Stupid Taylors'.Stupid dupid Taylors'.

Grr.

Oh stupid human

So I lost my wallet again. In the MPH. Just got fucked up by my parents. Apparently lost your wallet twice in two to three months is quite-pissing-my-parents-off-full.

Few weeks ago, you volunteered to take the job as a leader where I think that i's finally the time for me to let go everything and enjoy the rest of my A-Level life properly as a college student, study play study.Apparently I was wrong. Last night is a disaster, lost wallet, thonnes of your undone job, those that supposed to be there are already left, home, maybe studying, or doing homework, or watching TV, while I,while I'm not supposed to, working my ass off, giving orders, climbing up and down, that's fine. Thankfully Miss Yeap's student volunteered to help and everyone is sweating inside the air-con-less hall doing the same thing. My shirt's wet and dry, wet and dry whick stinks and sweaty-sticky. I remained silent, keep on my work while I keep on thinking back how easy and simple promise you've made last time while I asked whether you can get the back row done."Yes" "Yes" Yes you blasted my head off. Somehow I really wonder how stupid of me taking up the job as the Vice President of the event while others are preparing for trials. Though I knew I was screwed but anyway,

I'm rushed to college and get MPH opened while I found out that everything falled off and I have to stick it back again.So someone smsed me and ask me whether I needed help. I reply yes and please be here as son as possible.There're people that not supposed to, but they are here to help since those that supposed to be here telling me they can't afford to skip class anymore. Oh what class? what class it is? OH , The AS Syllabus that exactly copied what you've learnt in Form 5 and you're telling me you can't afford to skip that, what kinda fucking reason is that? Oh have you ever asked me what am I having soon? No mine's no big deal, it's just A2 Trials that I have no idea where the hell should I start for revision and I am so screwed with it that I will probably screwed up the real A Levels Exam too. So once again I am running around giving orders and you are sitting in the class copying notes? I skipped Econs and Maths for your job and you're there copying notes? That's so fair.

And that's not all, when the whole event's done you left me there cleaning the whole hall alone?There's 13,13 of you all and none fo you showed up. Oh ya, you showed up with a bunch of friends showing them your artwork which the rest has been done by Miss Yeap's student? Yeah. and you left.Without even asking something like this :"Felix do you need help?" No you just left.And I am there while the workers there pitying me saying that I am so pity have to work alone while I hate it. and apparently you just gone with the wind, lost in contact.

And oh ya, I met you in the library entrance and you told me that your friend helped me clean up the stuffs. Yes he did and it's very nice of him to helped out though is none of his business where those that suppose to clean up, like you, just gone no where. And you know what, the moment he reached, I already climbed up the ladder, tearing up the dragon apart.

I am speechless. For days I worked like crap on those work that I am not supposed to do.
It's just crap.
Crap.

I am done ranting.

E W W *in a more terrible way*

Yes people I've ate a cockroach. I guess. So if I can't spit out a cockroach leg from my mouth, I guess the rest already flow into my tummy.

Apparently my stupid computer at home can't connect to this blogger dear god I wonder why.But in the other side I guess is good enough asking me to concentrate more on study and guess why.




Trials is coming.


TRIALS IS COMING ! ! !
*insert a sad-shrieking-face here*

Yesh oh dear trials is coming and we're so screwed. With the speed that I am using now to finish up my Maths paper 3, yes I definitely will screwed up the trials. So what can I say? Do more maths,study more Physics, read more Econs. Feel like straching my head off.

Bwargh.

Spent the whole Friday at Singass'. Playing guitar,singing,mahjong.Fun.

American Idol is back. Yesh, fresh new season. Chris Richardson and Blake Lewis is good. Gina Glocksen and Stephanie Edwards are has marvellous voices. Lakisha Jones is unbeatable, but I have a feeling that she's not going to win this season,same case to Mandisa from season 5. Melinda Doolittle and Phil Stacey is entertaining. Sanjaya Malakar and Antonella Barba is kissing-my-ass-ly sucks to the max. They should have been kicked out first, Paul Kim the Korean American is much better than him larh.sigh. But overall I think this season's contestant is less interesting,not because they are not good, just because last season has too many talent. The face+voice factor, people like Chris Daughtry, Kellie Pickler and Katherine Mcphee. Yes it's a great season last year.

Enough of the update, I should leave FTZ by then.Played a sucky game just now,should improve more on farming. Sigh.

Oh oh oh anyway, just found out that there're people hates me. There's some random guy typed on "FelixSucks" as his DotA nickname, Amir's the one that told me. But anyway, whoever you are, I hate you too. =)

Oh dear Auntee

How to deal with stingy and they are proud of their stinginess people?

How do you react when people happily tell you they went to the swimming pool not to swim but to take a bath using the club shower room because the shower there stronger they need no to wet up their house toilet.

I don't even know what to react listening to this.

How do you react while people happily tell you they collect those biscuits and snacks that people gave them as a present during festival seasons and they gave it back to other people again some day in the futures as present.

Speechless.

How do you react while people happily show you the herbs they got to cure some sickness they have by free.

I don't even know what to react, and don't even know whether the herb is safe to use.

How do you react when people told you they can sleep and eat easily though they have Thyroid anad they want to save the money not going to doctor.

I don't even kow what to say, what to react and what the hell is Thyroid.

Stingy until like this also can.

Sigh~

Further

Just wasted up my connection speed waiting a clip to load which turns out that it's just a lame animation singing "Choi San Dou".

But anyway reached home finally after staying at Aunt's house at Sungai Petani for a day. The family gathering I mentioned is disappointing at some point but still overall it's fun. Maybe we didn't see each other that much which results in the connection between some of our cousins and us faded. It's so wierd when the adults are all talking outside and 9 of us,5 of theirs and 4 of us sitting at the living room, not talking to each other. They are all busy pressing their handphones, playing games taking photos bluetoothing files and watching videos.The worst thing is even their mum joined,which left 4 of us stoning there watching them. I expected we have more stuff to talked about. They've growned up a LOT. Maybe that's why we're not as close as last time anymore while the thought of being there has changed. I missed the day while we're all still kiddy and everyone's in the mood of playing fire crackers at my house. At least we are TALKING over there you know. I wonder if they still remember that, or my name, or I am only the-one-that-played-fire-crackers-with-us-last-time-cousin which I dont' want to be. Sigh.

Shit happens on everyone.Shits.
People always have big secrets hidden inside where you will be so shocked to find out.Someday when you are talking with other people and they was like suddenly saying hey, do you know that I blahblahblahblah which your heart will stop beating for seconds listening to this. I talked with my cousins last night where we begin talking about another cousin that younger than us asking them questions about sex which I think it's good for them to ask, not that I am a pervert that interested in knowing people asked this kinda questions to me but they really don't dare to ask their parents about this questions and they really wanted to know so that they have to ask from the other people seeking for a satisfying answer.

But then we talked and the topic changed, I wonder when, to friends and stuff while they started to tell me a secret that I didn't expect to hear happens on them, which they claimed I am the first outsider to know about this.Then it reveals how scary a person can be when it comes to suspisions and expectation. Bad decisions and over protected the wrong person left the innocent one hanging around alone and all the blames were thrown on him/her, and there you are overpowering other people's life.You really can't judge book by their cover, who knows there's going to be a porn-contented-fiction-looked-cover book arranged somewhere in the fiction section in the MPH bookstore. Lame but true,Kills me. Wonder if I seriously should called you a demon, though outwardly you seriouslynot supposed to be called this way.

At somepoint I can't get over with the whole thing while deep inside my heart i get really pissed and really felt very unfair for the innocent but too bad things already happened while I did not know and I can't do anything about it.

Dear Jac,
I wish you good luck and wish that things got clearly settled someday in the future, at least don't leave it unsolved.

updates

Family Relatives Dramatic Politics,
happens everytime while we're having family gathering,
while the elders chat with each other, talking about how's life or how's the children going,
Every lines of their conversation filled with sacrasm.


Ugh.



But anyway.
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR people.
I know you all missed me but please be patient, Iam going back soon k?

Shit happens recently.

Sorrow overwhelmed.

Tears dropping.

Shattered.
In pieces.

Disappointment.

Seperation.

Misunderstanding.

Conflict.

Betrayal.

Giving up on hope.

Life's that fuckingly, so damn fuckingly sad, isn't it so?

******************************************

And dear YOU :

You know what ? After I did so much for you then I realised, you don't even care about us. But I don't want to end up our friendship like this because I care about it more than anyone, any other of your friends I think. But now then I know you don't even care. So maybe I am stupid enough to trust and think that you still care of our friendship. Now it seems that you don't. I still keep the last hope in my heart and I insist not to let it go. I guess we'll see what happen soon.

Sometimes I really wish that I don't know you at the first place, at least now I don't have to worry this much on you.

Or maybe I am too perasan about us. I am too perasan that I thought I know you well but maybe I am not even close about it.

I guess we're on the same boat now, Farah.

You think you know me well

But you don't know me

15 Minutes of Shock, 3 minutes of tears

O
M
F
G.

I was walking home with Aaron just now where me myself witnessed a handbag snatching case happened in front of ma-eyes just, like, that.

So it happened like this, where there was 3 malay ladies walking in front of us slowly with their handbag on their shoulders, 2 chinese guys behind us. We were walking at SS15,along the lane opposite KFC beside the big field on the way to Subang Jaya KTM. So there was 2 guys riding a motorcycle passed through us in front of us but none of us were awared about it cause it's normal that motorcyclists at that area riding the bike,crossing the small lane in the housing area law-less. So then Aaron and I try to walk pass the malay ladies then we heard they shouted. As we turn back we already saw the motorcyclists ran away, and there's one lady fell down on the ground and she's injured. Her ankle is bleeding and she sprained her left arm. I was seriously shocked,speechless.

Then the chinese guy told us saying the motorcyclist made a turn after they rode through them.

I freaked the fucking hell out of myself and guess what?

I called 999.




Seriously I called 999.
They failed to snatch the handbag, and I can't remember the plat number of the bike.
So there was this operator transfer my call to the Subang Jaya Police Station and I tried to describe what happened and what I saw. So guess what the policemen over there said :

"Panggil perempuan itu datang ke Polis Stesen dan report."

WTF?
no seriously, WTF?

Malaysian Police. Pft. PFT PFT PFT!!

So anyway, people that reading this, especially those that staying around SS15, please be careful. Not that ask you not to go out and stay at home after class and those shit, but please just be aware of people around you.

Yappy,Elvis, take care of yourself.Get well soon.

oh shit you blogger

*bad words*
I just click publish and the whole thing poofed off.

But then now I am kinda lazy to type all of them out again. So basically now I am going to summarize what I type just now so here we go :

Fainting.

Dying.

but in between, Enjoying it.

*inhales exhales*

TZU YING CARRY MEEE~~~

23% of Fat

I am getting fatter.








Though is a wierd topic coming out from my mouth. But what the hell, I am getting fatter and fatter. Oh shit, I just found out two days ago while I was sitting in front of the computer watching Veronica Mars, then I looked down, oh dear god, where did the packs gone !!!???

*ahem, i don't even have one ahem ahem*

I once told myself that ,I should start doing sports.
while I was, 14.

But I didn't, for the whole 4 years.
I don't do sport since I was 13 and I am damn lucky that I can grow this tall.And thanks to the height I don't look fat.Looking at the round tummy is just so effing sad.So now I am actually fat, and weak. Weak as in I might lost competing sprinting with some random girl. AHHH !!!!!Noooooo~~~






I should start doing sports.
Ugh bugger.


Aunt from hometown :" yooooo tsk tsk, why you turn so skinny.. KL got nothing to eat is it..? aiyohhhhh~~"

shut up.

Tell me about it

I broke my own home keys into half yesterday. It's an accident, don't ask me how, but it appears to happen. And I've forgotten to ask the keys from my sister and it turns out that I've saved 6 bucks today,thanks to Kameni for driving me home, and traded a 45-minutes-stuck-outside-the-house-payback.

So, guess what I've done while waiting for help. I spent some time find 3 sticks and some rope around the front yard. Oh, I only found 2 sticks from my own house and I stole one from my neighbour. Then I tied up the 3 sticks and try to use the long stick and hook my keys form the living room table outside though I know it's broke. Luckily my aunt came to the rescue and save me from doing idiot stuff and make myself fishy. Luckily none watching me or else by then, aunt have to come to rescue me, at the balai.

Was watching Veronica Mars, good mood, and one simple message ruin everything. Finally this day has come, though no one want this to happen, it's really sucks. Big one.Oh dear god, hopefully they are both fine.

Farah, please get well soon. Everyone in PE4 is worried about you.
and both of you, please be strong. I'm really speechless, really, speechless right now.
Tomorrow is going to be a sucky one.

Love kills.